Wednesday, October 14, 2009
hahahahha.......... seems like its breaking apart. haaa, what to do next?
---12:28 PM---
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
I never wanted this to happen, I never wanted myself to be like that, but it just still make me wonder ever since the day things about u are revealed to me, and the repetitive mistakes you made of the same matter. I always try to find ways to allow myself to believe in you once more, always it turns out bad. TRUE, always in any relationship, i win. I always do win. Like i want like that, beat me to that if you can then, i'll just back down. But convince me to that, nonsensical blabbering wont work. I dun buy that.
Like, is it hard to make me trust you once more? You say I dont love u as much as before, in wad sense? Everywhere i go, i might be joking around, playing a fool, being a mischievous mfker, but most of them know, how important you are to me, and how proud i am to have you.
Honestly, I dun entertain stupidity, abit nvm, too much, i cannot take it. And also, i cannot understand i cannot get the concern i want, it is not hard, i did receive it.. why can't i now? all just for show? I even wonder the impossible, shan't state it.
I guess i'll really need a break.
---10:24 PM---
Monday, July 20, 2009
I just got worried. Think about me sometimes.
-thats all.
---5:27 PM---
Monday, July 13, 2009
HOHOHO! dear and me went to the CosFestVII or CosFest 2009. There weren't much cosplayers, sad.. maybe tmr den will have alot coz of the event tmr.
But as the picture above, dear is with PAC-MAN!~ LOLOLL! trust me, she said she wanted to take picture with that cosplayer no matter wad, or she cry ROFL.
We went to mac and eat, and we saw this small boy who cosplayed as a pumpkin! LOL he was so cute la, not only i think that way, dear too! XD
I ate McSpicy meal and dear ate McWings meal, all wing. LOL. I got 'spiced' up by the McSpicy, it was too spicy for me.. but i still finished it.
Outside the CosFest hall, there was this Gundam, as described on the picture above LOL. Wad a cosplay..
And lastly, dear's fav ball joint dolls :D *sorry dear, but that too ex for me to buy for u.. but i hope one day i can? :)*
Really had fun together as usual, even if we are doing nothing, i'll still think its fun :) I love you dear! mwarks! <3s
---1:16 AM---
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
just when everything is going to be fine i thought. And i just have to be the only one NOT be informed of the cancel for today's practice. And what? for personal reasons? and what? from the mouth of the person who said, " THIS IS A BIG THING FOR THE SCENE" and just for some petty quarrel this is canceled? Oh, so that means, " hey bro, i quarrel with my friend, i cannot go for today training" and i get, " eh fuck u, u think this is what?!" oh fuck u back.
And what? I ended up in Marina Sq, for nothing, eating Mac? fuck yea. And went online, chatted, and its like, nothing is happening around, like caring for ur own, and what about me?Heck care right? Am i like so happy right here right now after knowing that i've not been notified of this and what? I dun even get comforted. IM A GUY BUT I NEED COMFORTING TOO, I-AM-A-HUMAN-BEING for goodness sake, i have feelings and emotion fyi.
Like wtf, all the way as if im so happy going HA HA HA all the way. like wth la.. And then it comes, i knew it, ur just going to get pissed off. All then sounded like my fault. IF u can get more pissed off than me, then fine. MY FAULT for this k?why? simple, IF I DON'T GET PISSED OFF WITH THIS AND TELLING THAT I AM PISSED OFF, YOU WONT BE LIKE THIS. SO FROM NOW ON, I JUST S-T-F-U.
---8:41 PM---
Just finished watching Crows Zero II today in class(ops.. guess i shouldn't be saying that)
AND ITS THE BOMB! it is freaking awesome! like cannot stop watching once u start de laaaa~~ the first movie was already very nice, but this one, is even better! Things get messier, and more chaotic, so much that ur eyes will go from 'o.o' to 'O.O', something like that, so I recommend u guys to watch la, whoever reads this, its really good!
P.S. not for u dear, coz i noe u dun like HAHAHA! but of coz, u can watch if u want to! =D
---3:12 PM---
This blog is finally back with a song!
" Flumpool - Over The Rain ~Hikari no Hashi~ "
*also the theme song for the JDrama, Bloody Monday.*
Romanji:
tsumetai ame ga hoho wo nurashite mo
hanabira ni ochita shizuku ga kimi to kasanatte
sore ga hikari to yoberu mono naraba
kagayaki wa iro asenai ne
donna ni kegasaretatte
aa kienai tte omou koto
kore kiri jyanai kanashii kioku kesenai you ni
namida koraeta hitomi no mune ni
nani yori mo kirei na hikari wo atsumete
kumo no mukou ni aruite yukou
ame no ato ni wa niji ga kakaru
mimi wo sumaseba kikoeteru kodou
suteta mon jyanai tte sotto kokoro ga shikaru
kono te wo totte hokori wo tatakeba
kimi ni mo mieru hazu kyou ga
kinou to wa chigau ima da to
aa hitotsu no kizu dake de
tachi domaru you na keshya na kitai koko ni sutete
dara mo ga minna kibou no hashi wo
kokoro de egaiteru kurayami no naka de
ame ga agareba sora ni kakaru
yume wo shinjite aruite yukou
koe wo karashite sakebi tsudzukete mo
mogaki tsudzukete tada mukuwarenai
te ni tore sou na todokanai you na
sono hikari ga kotae da
hoho wo nurashita ame no shizuku wa
hito suji no kagayaki obienakute ii
dare mo ga minna niji wo miru tame ni
ikiteiru kogoeta kurayami no naka de
ame ga agareba sora ni kakaru
yume wo shinjite aruite yukou
yume dake wo shinjite aruite yukou
Translation:
Even though the cold rain wets your cheek,
The drop that falls on the petal overlaps with you
If that becomes like sunshine
the sparkle won't lose its color,
no matter how tarnished it is.
Ah, thinking it won't disappear,
Not just this, the feeling of sadness won't fade.
Within the eyes that endured tears, the light that is prettier than all else is collected.
Let's walk on the other side of the clouds.
After the rain, a rainbow will appear.
If you listen carefully the beat that can be heard
is not something thrown aside.
It is gentle; the heart is merry.
Take this hand and strike the dust.
You will probably see that today and yesterday are now different.
Oh, it's just one wound
As though the precious expectation has ceased. Leave it here.
Everyone will draw the bridge of all our hope in their hearts amid the dark.
When the rain lifts, we'll believe the dream built in the sky and go walking.
Even though you continue to shout hoarsely and continue to flounder, it's just unrequited.
It seems you can take it in your hand; it seems it won't arrive.
That sunshine is the answer.
The raindrops that wet the cheek are a single muscle's glitter.
No need to be frightened.
Everyone is living so that we may all see the rainbow, in the starved darkness.
When the rain clears, we'll trust the dream built in the sky and go walking.
Believe only the dream and let's go walking.
---9:47 AM---
